Sucks. Found myself wanting to let this out, so what other better way than to Tumblr it right? My past is not something I’m very fond of. When I think too deep about it, feelings I thought were long gone comes rushing back like a fucking boomerang. They’re never the butterfly ones anymore, those died out a long ass time ago. It’s hard to tell why a long thought from the past still hurts you to this very day. Is it because you still care? Or maybe it’s because things hadn’t turn out the way you prayed it will.. which basically falls into the category of ‘you still care. So maybe it isn’t hard to narrow down the possible reasons why. But that’s not my point. Like, I’m reminded of the good times and then the heartaqe follows. I guess it’s disappointing, reminiscing is sort of like reliving the past in your mind. It’s like your favorite song, after finding out the love of your life had dedicated it to his significant other, you’re not only reminded of who’s “song” it was.. but you also tend to recapture a few of the pain it caused you. But you know what? I’m good. It’s all good. I can live with a bad heartfelt memory every once in a while, because no matter how much it hurt, it didn’t devour me. It didn’t kill me. Like the famous saying, “what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger”. That is what made me who I am today & if I could go back in time to change anything, I probably would. Haha, what?! It’s not everyday you get to travel back in time and undo some of the most life-changing-for-the-worst mistakes. *Sigh, thinking about everything I let myself fall into brought me down a bit.. But this blog helped. I’m done ranting. Thanks Tumblr :) I feel much better now, goodnight.
